13 months since my last confession

Jag antar nu att ingen läser den här bloggen längre med tanke på hur jag negligerar den, så från och med nu kommer jag använda den lite som kom-i-håg lista ibland. Specifikt för just denna gång är att jag snubblade över en Escada reklam, och så kom jag på att jag har en favorit. Jag mindes bara inte vilken. Men, efter lite efterforsking (Google) fann jag den - min Escada Absolute Me. Loves it. Så nu tänkte jag skriva ner dom jag kommer på just nu så att jag kan köpa dom igen i framtiden.

Escada Absolutely Me

L'eau Par Kenzo Pour Femme

Giorgio Armani Sí

Sara Jessica Parker

Beckham Signature For Her

Christina Aguilera

Acqua di Gioia

Jean Paul Gaultier

Det är dom jag kommer ihåg för nu och det är inte i tidsordning. Jean Paul Gaultier fick jag av första exet och jag är inte helt säker på att jag kommer överens med den doften längre. Men jag kan minnas fel. Och kanske kan den till och med passa bättre nu, vem vet.

Citat som jag vill minnas

"There are things you maybe canna tell me. I will not ask you, or force you. But when you do tell me something, let it be the truth. There is nothing between us now but respect and respect has room for secrets, I think. But not for lies."

Outlander series, av Diana Gabaldon



"Seems I canna possess your soul without losing my own"

Outlander series, av Diana Gabaldon

Uppföljning från förra inlägget

Okej. Igen. Det har gått ett bra tag sen sist så jag får väl börja med att summera upp hur det har gått med senaste inläggets ämnesfrågor.

Frisk har jag blivit. Typ. Det har dragits blod från mig säkert fem gånger på vårdcentralen för otaliga provtagningar, och även om jag fått tillbaka min energi så säger en del av proverna att något är lite på sniskan. Dels något med levern och dels något som heter IGF-1 (InsulinLikeGrowthFactor1) som tydligen till stor del bildas i just levern. Dessa ligger lite högt och eftersom jag fortfarande känner mig lite.. konstig.. så har läkaren nu bestämt sig för att remittera mig till Internmedicin på Lunds Lasarett för mer djupgående provtagningar. Det som fått mig att vilja gå vidare med det, fastän jag känner mig mycket bättre, är att jag märkt några subtila förändringar hos mig själv. Min vecka kommer nu med mellan två och tre veckors mellanrum. I hela mitt liv har den varit punktlig sånär som inpå dagen, 30 eller 31 dagar. Jag får inte av mig min ring, trots att jag gått ner tre kilo sen förra sommaren och då kom den av utan problem. Fotknölen vid höger stortå har växt och är betydligt större än vänstra. Och så är det den här besynnerliga känslan jag har främst i armarna. Som att det kittlar, i benen tror jag men det är svårt att säga. Och det är inte kittlande som att jag vill skratta, mer ett.. hummande.. kanske som när foten somnat och den börjar vakna upp. Vissa dagar har jag känt det i hela kroppen och det driver mig nästan till vansinne. Jag vill bara stretcha och sträcka på mig hela tiden, för att det känns som att det kanske ska lossna då. Men inget lossnar, och hummandet finns kvar. Så. Jag väntar med spänning på att få min remisstid. För det här är nåt konstigt.

Igår var jag på intervju på Hälsans Hus i Lund. Det ska snackas lite med arbetsförmedlingen, men om allt går bra så kan det finnas en plats där för mig i september. Vi får väl se vad som händer.

Tredje månaden gillt?

Den tredje januari i år blev jag förkyld. Symptomen höll i sig ett par veckor och sedan verkade det som att jag var återställd. Kände mig trött fortfarande, lite grand, men tänkte att det ger sig med tiden. Började träna, vilket kändes hyfsat ok under själva passet, men ett par dagar efter var jag helt slut och halsontet kom tillbaka. Vila igen en vecka. Börja träna. Dålig. Vila en vecka. Träna. Dålig. Så höll jag på i knappt två månader tills jag kände att nej, kanske dags att lägga ner träningen helt och hållet och låta kroppen läka ut i lugn och ro. DET HAR NU GÅTT TRE MÅNADER ^^ och tre provtagningsomgångar på vårdcentralen med mängder av olika prover tagna varje gång. Mitt stackars armveck. Dessutom har jag senaste månaden blivit allt tröttare och hängigare, fått påsar under ögonen och känner mig som att jag har 100 iglar som suger livsenergin ur mig. Anstränger jag mig minsta lilla nu så får jag hjärtklappning och måste sätta mig ner och dra djupa andetag till det lugnar sig. För en dryg vecka sen skrev läkaren ut penicillin till mig, på vinst och förlust liksom, eftersom dom inte hittat något i proverna. De sista dagarna på kuren började jag faktiskt känna mig lite bättre. Svullnaden runt ögonen hade nästan lagt sig och jag började känna mig lite skojfrisk igen. Så tog kuren slut och ett par dagar senare kom skiten tillbaka. Så någon effekt hade det faktiskt. Ska pallra mig iväg till vårdcentralen på måndag och be om ett nytt recept men denna gången på två veckor så det hinner ha effekt. Nu vill jag bli frisk. Jag vill få mitt liv tillbaka. Jag vill träna. Jag vill ha aptit. Jag vill känna livsglädje.

2014 har med andra ord börjat.. inte så fett. Jag som var så otroligt positiv till det nya året som skulle bli så mycket bättre än förra. Det finns mycket kvar fortfarande av 2014, så det kommer ju bli bättre. Men det har varit tungt. Något som varit helt fantastiskt är dock att jag äntligen fått en lägenhet! Och inte vilken som helst, utan en som jag trivs superbra i. Den är underbart utformad, kallas etta med sovalkov men alkoven är mer som ett rum. Sprillans ny tvättmaskin och torktumlare har jag - i mitt eget badrum! Och balkong... Jag har en egen balkong.. SOM jag ska njuta av den nu till sommaren!

På tal om något helt annat. Igår fyllde jag 25. That's my story and I'm sticking by it ^^

Out!

Relaxation revolution

Hur man kan motverka stressen och ställa om kropp och hjärna!

Herbert Benson, MD, a brilliant Harvard Medical School professor, has been studying the science of meditation for decades. His pioneering book, Relaxation Revolution (Scribner, 2011), is packed with scientific research studies, practical tips, and guided meditations and visualizations on how to deal with a range of specific life challenges.

I’m excited to share a few of my favorite Big Ideas from this mind-blowing book. So let’s dive in!

A Solution to Stress

The relaxation response, writes Benson, is the opposite of the fight-or-flight stress response. “It is characterized by the following: decreased metabolism, heart rate, blood pressure, and rate of breathing; a decrease or ‘calming’ in brain activity; an increase in attention and decision-making functions of the brain; and changes in gene activity that are the opposite of those associated with stress.”

Our bodies are brilliantly designed in such a way that, when faced with a life-threatening danger (or a perceived life-threatening danger), our hearts pump blood to our legs so we can make a quick exit, and adrenaline floods our system so we’re as strong as possible for a potential fight. Unfortunately, our bodies’ evolution hasn’t quite kept up with our minds’ evolution, and now a sideways glance from our boss or someone cutting us off in traffic often elicits the same response. All. Day. Long.

But researchers have discovered that we possess the ability to induce the relaxation response in a relatively short period of time. And there’s more good news: The benefits of doing so are huge.

The Power to Change Your Genes

Benson and his team of researchers wanted to see if mind-body practices influence our genetics. They studied 19 seasoned mind-body practitioners and 19 people without any experience in mind-body practices. The participants were married and unmarried men and women in their mid-30s to early 40s. Their findings were significant: 2,209 genes were expressed differently — and more healthfully — in the mind-body practitioners.

The researchers didn’t stop there. “We continued our investigation by posing these questions: ‘What would happen if the participants . . . with no experience with the relaxation response were instructed in appropriate mind-body techniques and then applied them in their daily lives for a few weeks? In that short time period, would they show any of the same positive, anti-stress gene-expression changes that the highly experienced mind-body practitioners had shown?’”

The answer is yes. After eight weeks of doing mind-body practices, the second group exhibited healthful changes in genetic expression on 1,561 genes.

“The probability of this being due to chance was less than five in 100,” writes Benson. “Even more striking, when we compared [the nonpracticing] group after their training with the experienced mind-body group [with an average of 9.4 years of mind-body practice], we found that 433 gene-expression signatures were similar in both groups.” Just eight weeks of training had induced a genetic relaxation response similar to the one in long-time practitioners.

“The significance of these results came home to us dramatically when we considered how likely (or unlikely) it would be for these changes to have happened by chance in both parts of the experiment. We determined that the probability of the same gene signatures being involved accidentally in both groups in both experiments was less than one in 10 billion,” he adds.

Wow! It’s incredibly inspiring that we can significantly alter our genes by engaging in simple mind-body practices for as little as eight weeks.

Triggering the Mindy-Body Response

One of the key findings Benson emphasizes throughout the book is this: It doesn’t really matter what techniques you employ to relax; what matters is that those techniques successfully induce the mind-body response for you.

“The participants in the genetics study used a number of different meditative, relaxation, and prayer-based techniques. These included repeating a mantra, mindfulness meditation, transcendental meditation, Vipassana meditation, breath focus, Kripalu or Kundalini yoga, and repetitive prayer. Despite the variety, all techniques yielded the same gene expression,” he says.

Whatever technique you choose, Benson offers these tips for success:

Brush Your Brain. When someone experiences performance anxiety about how well they’re inducing the relaxation response, Benson tells them: “Don’t worry about how well you’re doing! Don’t worry about whether the relaxation response is really working. . . . Just do it!”

He likens it to brushing your teeth. “Most of us are concerned to one extent or another with dental hygiene,” he explains, “but we don’t dwell on the tooth-cleaning process. Almost no one evaluates the brushing to say, ‘That was a good brush!’ or, ‘Too bad — that was a bad brush.’ We simply do it.”

Now imagine taking the same approach with our meditation. It’s not about doing it perfectly; it’s about doing it consistently.

And, of course, the same rule holds for any activity in our lives where we may hold back for fear of not doing it perfectly — whether that’s writing or performing or teaching, or whatever. The fact is, the greatest risk is simply not showing up.

Just say, “Oh, well.” During the genetics study, participants would pose questions to the researchers. The most common question was some variation on this: “I keep having these outside thoughts that interfere with my concentration — what can I do to avoid them?” Their stock answer? “Just say, ‘Oh well,’ and return to the exercise.”

A Powerful Key to Health

According to Benson, “Any condition that is caused or exacerbated by stress can be helped by a well-designed mind-body approach. Further-more, because all health conditions have some stress component, it is no overstatement to say that virtually every single health problem and disease can be improved with a mind-body approach.”

Plato once said: “The greatest mistake physicians make is that they attempt to cure the body without attempting to cure the mind; yet the mind and the body are one and should not be treated separately!”

Now, 2,500 years later, science has finally proven Plato right!

Stressade binjurar

En artikel jag läst som passar väldigt bra in på hur jag mår. Måste sparas.

ADRENAL FATIGUE 101

Posted August 30th, 2011 by Jill Grunewald

• Do you have a hard time falling asleep at night?
• Do you wake up frequently during the night?
• Do you have a hard time waking up in the morning early or feeling refreshed?
• Do you get an afternoon slump, only to perk up around 6 or 7pm, and then get a second wind around 9:30?
• Are you lacking in energy?
• Do you feel tired yet wired?
• Do bright lights bother you more than they should?
• Do you startle easily due to noise?
• When standing from sitting or from lying down, do you feel lightheaded or dizzy?
• Do you take things too seriously, and are you easily defensive?
• Do you feel you don’t cope well with certain people or events in your life?
• Are you moody or do you have excessive emotions?
• Are you prone to yelling or screaming?
• Are you irritable and accusatory?
• Do you have sharp verbal responses?
• Do you have excessive sensitivity to others' suffering?
• Do you sigh frequently?
• Do you crave fat and salt?
• Do you have a hard time handling foods high in potassium or carbohydrates unless they're combined with fats and protein?
• Do you have an autoimmune disorder?

Adrenal fatigue is a hormonal disruption due to chronic stress and the overproduction of stress hormones. It’s sometimes called non-Addison’s hypoadrenia, which is not a widely accepted diagnosis in the world of conventional medicine. Adrenal fatigue is not Addison’s disease, a rare condition where the adrenal glands completely fail. It’s a milder syndrome where the adrenals get bogged down and can’t keep up with the demands we place on ourselves.
Most doctors tend to think in black and white and adrenal fatigue is one of those gray areas - either you have Addison’s or you don’t. But an emerging group of functional medicine practitioners is currently doing an amazing job of raising awareness about this epidemic that is estimated to affect 80% of the population to some degree. According to Dr. Frank Lipman, “We in Western medicine don’t know how to recognize a problem until it has manifested as a ‘disease.’ It’s a lot like brake pads - until brake pads have worn down completely, you don’t know that they are wearing down.”
If you’re in the initial stages of adrenal fatigue, where you’re overproducing stress hormones, and then stress continues unaddressed, your body will enter a second phase of adrenal fatigue, where the adrenals simply get exhausted. They can’t maintain cortisol and adrenaline production and people have a really difficult time coping with the simplest of life’s demands.
To the body, stress is stress. It doesn’t matter if your stress is from being chased by a bear or a deadline at work. And in today’s culture, we are subjected to ‘round-the-clock stressors, unlike our ancestors, who had periods of stress from hunting and foraging for food, for example, followed by long periods of relaxation.
Tiny and Mighty
The adrenals are two small glands that sit atop the kidneys. They are responsible for releasing calculated and small amounts of stress hormones, cortisol and adrenaline, that trigger the fight or flight response that helps us deal with life-threatening situations. Because so many of us are living our lives in a stressed-out emergency state, we’re now releasing stress hormones relentlessly.
Even if you don’t consider yourself a stress monger, modern, everyday life, with all of its traffic jams, deadlines, economic stress, overconsumption of caffeine and sugar, being constantly plugged in and on the go, and never-ending negative media chatter can lead to an overproduction of stress hormones. So yes, there is a spectrum of adrenal fatigue that can run from mild adrenal fatigue to total adrenal exhaustion.
As if the symptoms of adrenal fatigue – cravings, sleep disturbances, blood sugar issues, moodiness, overwhelm, achiness, feeling ungrounded, and mental exhaustion – weren’t enough, there is another unwanted byproduct of tired adrenals…belly fat. Cortisol is the belly fat hormone and if you’re overproducing cortisol, you probably have some belly fat.
Love Yourself Up
So how do you address adrenal fatigue? You might be surprised with what I have to tell you. It’s treatable with whole foods nutrition and…lots of self-care. There is no drug for adrenal fatigue, and those over the counter glandulars often further stimulate and fatigue your glands. So yep, making your health, sanity, and wellbeing a priority is what nourished and supports the adrenals. The key is to allay the stress in your life and keep these glands from overproducing stress hormones.
Evaluate what’s going on in your life and don’t allow yourself to become overwhelmed. Don’t push yourself and learn to say, “No.” Practice with me here, “NO.”
With adrenal fatigue, pushing ourselves is completely counterproductive to healing, but those stress hormones that amp us up often make us want to push more and do more. You have to learn to slow down. This can seem impossible for some people, especially when we live in a society that overvalues productivity and working ourselves to a frenzy. I’m asking you to be a rebel here and go against this unfounded rule that things have to be this way. Otherwise, you could truly wear yourself out. Then where will that leave you?
The pillars of repairing the adrenals:

• Don’t crash and burn with caffeine, sugar, and refined carbs. This includes alcohol, which is a form of sugar. People with adrenal fatigue fall into that trap of reaching for caffeine and sugar (the terrible twosome) to keep them marching on, but these can further stress your adrenals, so it’s wise to eliminate them from your diet. Just say no to the energy bungee cord.
• Make the focus of your meals and snacks protein and fat, with a lesser focus on carbohydrates. But do not eliminate carbs!
• Eat breakfast within 45 min. of waking to get your metabolism burning and to help your body regulate your cortisol cycle, which will help with sleep.
• Take supplemental licorice, which helps modulate adrenaline and cortisol output. Take it for 5 days, give it a break for about two or three weeks, and then resume with this same cycle. Licorice will really help level out/support your adrenal function. Please know that licorice can interfere with high blood pressure medication.
• Make sure you’re getting plenty of Vitamins B and C, sometimes needed over and above what’s already in your multivitamin, at least for a time.
• Do restorative exercise, like yoga, or walking. Don’t overtax the body with rigorous exercise. This can be stressful for the body, which will make you overproduce cortisol, the belly fat hormone.
• Say NO to more things.
• Breathe. Even five minutes a day of deep breathing will do wonders for your adrenals.
• Sleep. And go to bed early, if you can. Every hour before midnight is like two hours after. Set a quiet alarm for one hour before you turn in so that you can turn off all electronics, drink some herbal tea, maybe take a hot bath. Eight to 9 hours is ideal. For those recovering from severe adrenal exhaustion, 10 hours may be required initially.
• If you’re feeling fried, cancel your appointments for the day, if possible, and recharge your batteries by resting.
• Get quiet time TO YOURSELF. By yourself. Schedule uninterrupted, ALONE time, all for you, and do whatever you want to do…read trashy celebrity magazines, knit, write in a journal, whatever makes you feel good.
• Get creative. Incorporate some creativity into your life. Play an instrument, dance, paint, write, crochet … I’m telling you, this is food for the adrenals.
• Engage with people who you most enjoy and who bring out the best in you. It’s okay to let go of relationships that no longer serve you.
• Play. Let go of what drains you. You don’t have to do it all.

Any approach to correcting adrenal fatigue must address the effects of chronic stress. And as you can see from the list I have provided you, there is a lot of fun involved!

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Proteinfudge!

Gott, nyttigt och tillåtet- som vanligt!

1 dl kokosolja

1 dl jordnötssmör

60 g färsk ost (jag tog Lidls med 0 %fett- vill inte ha xtra kalorier och nej-det finns inga konstiga tillsatser)

1, 5 dl proteinpulver i vanilj (man kan ta i choklad också)

2 msk Sukrin

Gör så här:

Smälta kokosoljan och jordnötssmöret i micron. Blanda ihop ordenligt.

Vispa in osten.

Lägg till proteinpulver och sukrin. Det blir en bollformad deg.

Fram med folien, forma ”bollen” till en stor kvadrat, platta till  och placera i frysen för 30 -45 minuter.

Gör små godisbitar och njut!

Hittat HÄR. Så ingen tror jag tar cred för någon annans snask.